.. sailing.... into the light with Him...

living in the shadows,

letting fear enter into my mind,

not looking upwards

I go half-blind

you think I'd have learned my lesson,

for the floor falls right through

every time I take my eyes off You

for You are, You are the only light I need

You are , You are the lamp unto my feet

 and You are, You are the bright morning star 

that shines for me

shadows come when night starts falling

illumination fades away

but there is no shadow of turning

You will always be there for me

shining through the shadows

letting faith enter into my mind

when I look upwards

it's You I find

Holding on to my heart

holding on straight and true

every time I keep my eyes on You

 for You are.. you are the only light I need.....

( You are, Annie Herring)

some significant time with my friend this morning..  hearing from Him and telling Him all I am feeling right now.. I surrendered the hope I thought I had found a few weeks ago.. He told me that I had to do this every day for as long as it would take until my hope was in Him alone again..

wondering how I can keep myself from taking my eyes off Him, when I prayed the whole time that I wouldn't.. and failed anyways..

accepting that He is the One to call  ALL  the shots.. even more than I had allowed Him before.. oh the journey, wish I could just get it figured out a little faster.. it is all about trusting more and more... know that, but cannot fast forward through this becoming part of my make up.. 

letting go of the "don't I deserve that relationship you have for me now, considering how much I have gone through" self pity party-entitlement attitude..

I have all I could ever want... my "man" is not a shabby one... He is strong, actually all powerful!!! considerate and the most caring... He knows me like no one ever will and He gave His life for me.. He rejoices over every corner I turn on my journey..  over every little inch I come closer to where He so desires for me to be... with Him, always..

I know that all the desires of my heart will be met... when the time is right... in His time, He will make beautiful all things.... thank you for your patience with me.. I love you!