... Jesus hold me now....

..isn't it funny.. or , really it is not funny at all... this roller coaster ride needs to come to an end... is this what life is all about? okay, so now , is it funny, or maybe not, that one day there can be so much hope and then the next some huge Eeyore cloud can make it's way and cover the sun, and I am finding myself broken, again, at the bottom of the cross crying out to my Saviour...

Jesus, hold me now 

I need to feel You in this place 

To know You’re by my side 

And hear Your voice tonight 

Jesus, hold me now 

I long for Your embrace 

I’m beat and broken down 

I can’t find my way out 

Jesus, hold me now 

I don’t know what else to pray 

Broken at Your feet I lay ,

Jesus, hold me now (Casting Crowns)

This morning in church already I got all emotional, loving Him so much and so aware of my need for Him, so grateful for His love for me.... His commitment... 

Living, He loved me

Dying, He saved me

Buried, He carried my sins far away

Rising, He justified freely forever

One day He’s coming

Oh glorious day, oh glorious day

 (Casting Crowns)

I hate sin, I hate the consequences, I hate to live with the consequences, but I have forgiven, so I will not bring the sin up again, or hold it against anyone, instead I will run to Him with my burdens, new hurts, my fears and my sorrow... and He, who loves me enough to choose to die for me, He is going to hear my cry... He is my Refuge, my Rock, My Fortress,

If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,” 

   and you make the Most High your dwelling, 

 no harm will overtake you, 

   no disaster will come near your tent. 

 For he will command his angels concerning you 

   to guard you in all your ways; 

 they will lift you up in their hands, 

   so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 

 You will tread on the lion and the cobra; 

   you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

 “Because she loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue her; 

   I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name. 

 She will call on me, and I will answer her; 

   I will be with her in trouble, 

   I will deliver her and honor her. 

 With long life I will satisfy her

   and show her my salvation.”

(Psalm 91:9-16)

Another song from Casting Crowns:

 You are...A Father to the fatherless, redeemer of my soul

My Life is Yours forever, my heart will always know

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Your mercy found me, called me as Your own

You're greater than my yesterdays, You hold me close today

You're the Lord of my tomorrows, my heart will always say

Your mercy saved me, mercy made me whole

Thank you for your mercy!!!

Praise be to God, for He is faithful!!!!!