.. I am CRAZY about Him..

reading "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan.. and it is a blunt, very effective reminder of what life is all about..  for some reason we dismiss, or I should say, apparently I have been doing this; the fact that the God of the Universe, the One that made all the millions of galaxies, the One that created  the 3000 different species of trees that are growing within one Square mile of the Amazon Jungle -  loves me with a radical, crazy love.. get your head around that one..
He has known me from before I was conceived and has planned out my life and given me a specific purpose..

I am supposed to bring Him glory when things are great, by humbly pointing to Him as the source of anything good in my life .. and I am supposed to bring Him glory when things are tough and people can see that I, by His strength am able to deal with it ( and that does not mean pretending all is fine ) and never lose the peace and joy that He gives me..

fact:

• He called me out of darkness into His marvellous light, even when I was dead in my transgressions and was an enemy of His
• He has shown me my purpose and I have been living a life filled with joy and deeper meaning since the moment He saved me.
• He is with me every second of every day
• He doesn't need me, yet He allows me to be part of what He is doing
• He has surrounded me with people that love Him and love me with His love
• He speaks to me through His Word
• He keeps me safe and gives me all I could ever need

So, what is my problem.. my life here is but a vapour, anything that seems so important to me right now will be forgotten, like I will be in 50-70 years... for sure..and I know that then I will be united with this amazing Creator, who also is my best friend..

how and where I will spend the rest of my life, which could be a mere day or another 30 years, does not matter much.. what matters is what impact I can have for eternity..

will I be received with a "well done, good and faithful servant".. how much will I have loved Him while on earth..

another fact:

• I am CRAZY about Him... and He is CRAZY about me.. that can't be topped...
• COOL

.. surprised by His Goodness.. or: I'd rather be sailing :)

driving home from dropping my youngest off at the airport a wave of this so familiar feeling of being alone in this world swept over me..
a long weekend like the one coming up has a way of highlighting the fact that I am by myself ..
having lost the peace I had found a few months ago about this phase of my life  just recently, I felt sorry for myself and  shed a few tears on my way home..

telling my Jesus just how sad I am I felt I should go and do something I haven't done in a long time.. I went and got my nails done.. I know, vain, a girly thing to do and I really didn't think it  would make me feel better...

but then, the marvellous Darling of Heaven surprised me once again..
started talking to a lady sitting next to me who has been single for about the same time... her husband passed away Christmas Eve 2009..

the blessing wasn't in the "doing something for myself" but in meeting someone , in connecting and relating. phone numbers were exchanged and I really hope we can bless one another in some way..

went to the grocery store and ran into about 10 people I know.. made me feel ..you guessed it : NOT alone..

oh what a God this God of mine is.. He never fails to overwhelm me with His kindness and goodness...
instead of saying to me what I am telling myself.. namely to get over myself and be thankful for what I have, He instead showered me with a special blessing... His gentleness is so sweet..

went home, alone.. but not lonely and sad.. how can I ever doubt that what He has is perfect..

Live in constant expectation for God to surprise you with His goodness! 

"You crown the year with Your goodness"

Psalm 65:11

my little puppy's tiny little snoring noises are endearing and I think I will fall asleep comforted by the love my Father is surrounding me with... He is the GREATEST!!!