Thursday, June 2, 2011

... running ahead (away from?) my best friend...

you know my "obsession" with Nashville and all the wonderful Christian people that are living there... following these two pastors of this cool church, and one of them posted today that his book was available for 2.99 for the kindle...... I had heard about it before and thought that for that kind of money it was definitely worth getting it... " Plan B: What Do You Do When God Doesn't Show Up The Way You Thought He Would?" by Pete Wilson.....

now me, the orthodox conservative Christian that I am, I did have a bit of a problem with "Plan B" when I first read the title...  I do believe that God does not have a Plan B for our lives, that He is never surprised, but that somehow He knows even the wrong choices we will make and work all the bad stuff out for our good... that He is totally sovereign and also allows the bad stuff in our lives to refine us...
anyways, it turns out Pete really is talking about what we would look at as Plan B, the place we are finding ourselves in when our Plan A is not working out the way we thought it would...

read the first 3 chapters and I am captivated....

dreams, plans, hopes, ideas.... how wonderful that God made us that way... he made us in His image and no one can deny how creative He is...you only have to look at nature and you can see how much He enjoys beauty, how much He loves detail, how romantic and full of love He is....
so no wonder we have plans and dreams....
living in this fallen world, often times those dreams do not come true... things do not turn out the way we would like for them to work out...
as we get older and are faced with unexpected "turns of events" again and again, we can't help to realize something: we are not in control of our lives, we cannot make the dreams happen and come true, we cannot always prevent the plans from not working out the way we would like them to work out, our ideas might be wrong, the choices we have made might not always have been the wisest...
using the life of David as an example of how we react when life doesn't work out like planned and we feel that God could have, should have fixed it for us.... Pete says we often times turn our back on God and run... trying to control things and fix them ourselves...doubting that God is still there and wondering if He really is on our side... figuring we know what God's plan is we are running ahead fixing it for Him..
now, how foolish is that? I know that I have done this before.... actually just a few weeks ago I thought I needed to help Him along a bit... He couldn't really mean He wanted me to still be alone... alone, when my Ex husband and his fiance were enjoying preparing for their upcoming wedding, when beautifully made up invitations for my girls were arriving  and I was hearing more and more of all the wonderful plans they are having.... He couldn't mean for me not to finally find that great man He has for me... so, I signed up for a Christian Dating Site again.... how foolish of me.... I have come to the conclusion before that a task that complicated has to be orchestrated by God Himself, or it can never work out....
not to say that He wouldn't work through a dating site... I know He has.... but in His time, when the time is right.... and for me, it definitely is not, not yet... too busy... too busy with my family, the Center, with all the curve balls illnesses have thrown me lately.... and, too early for my heart... so, a few days ago I canceled my membership again.... right in time to get the scary news about my daughter... duh......
she is my top priority right now, so are my other two daughters... I am treasuring the time I have with them, without having to worry about investing enough of myself and my time into a new relationship....

I enjoyed the first few chapters, I am sure Pete will have more great insights for me... love that he uses the scriptures to explain the concepts... and, what a nice guy, he even replies personally to some woman from Canada....
God's people are just great... there are definitely some great ones in Nashville, Tennessee... :D