another appointment with the Dr tomorrow and hopefully a plan of action, not of waiting...
still convinced that she will be fine...
seeing pictures on fb about the tent they put up on MWS's farm.... makes me a bit sad, everyone has been so very caring and nice ... it is 403 days until the cruise next year... waiting, gladly...
read something today that when we worry we do not trust... I am blessed to realize that I am not worried, I am realistic, I researched all this could mean right away... but I am not worried... I trust.
I remember when I used to be so scared of flying... afraid of what could happen... now I pray before we take off and I am just perfectly fine... I used to be so afraid of being alone in the house at night, when my (ex-)husband was away, with kids and dogs in the house... I could never sleep, until I was told to read Psalm 27 out loud to myself every night...
since being without a husband I have had nights were it has been just me, even in my big mansion... and I was not afraid at all... when he walked out on us and the pain, disbelief and fear of the unknown wanted to drown me... over time, through meditating on scripture I was able to have peace and trust..
my mother's ordeal, I prayed, prayed a lot, but I was not worried, I trusted Him... even if the outcome would have been worse than it has been... and now this.
it seems I am quite experienced handling bad news now... trusting Him with whatever the outcome will be... for the strength for the journey and His love and provision, His compassion, His healing power but most of all for that He will rescue me / us from every evil attack and will bring me / us safely to his heavenly kingdom. (2 Tim 4:18)
growing up in Christ, getting to know Him more and more, having relied on His promises and not been disappointed, having accepted the fact that in this world we DO have troubles, I am okay, and thankfully can communicate this to my child... pray with her when she gets scared and point her to her Daddy in Heaven...
my prayer for my kids has always been that they would love Him as much or more than I do... and for the last 5 months I have even dared to pray "whatever it takes, Lord"... so there we are... whatever it takes, Lord... I trust you for them!!!!!
