... Mother's Day....

...Mother's Day 2011.... the 47th Mother's Day I have experienced... and I admit... can't remember the first 3 or 4... I do remember picking flowers for my mother, Lily of the Valley and "Himmel schluesselchen" ( "Keys to Heaven"... one of my most favorite wild flowers... they don't grow here unfortunately)  making crafts for her and bringing my gifts plus some breakfast to her bed...
then, the last 22 years I have been a mother myself... beautiful paintings and cakes and flowers... hand made cards and beautiful words... have spent Mother's Day at Dance Competitions a few times already... today was another one of those...
last year, my mother hadn't quite dropped the bomb on me that she thought it served me well to have my husband lie and cheat on me and leave me... that happened a few weeks later... but I had found out that she too had betrayed me by, 6 weeks after he walked out on me, taking him and his "girlfriend" out for dinner...
this year... one of my beautiful daughters spending mother's day with my mother... posting pictures on facebook... arranging for a wonderful Mother's Day for her...
this year... talking to my mother I could hardly keep it together... because... I almost lost her 6 weeks ago... never before have I been that thankful for still having my mother around...
I don't think I have ever loved her more than I do today... the last 47 years of my relationship with my mother have not been without disappointment and sadness... I have let her down, and she has hurt me...
but we have forgiven each other and today there is only the love between a mother and a daughter...
today I missed my mother a lot... today I would have loved to spend the day with her...
sending a card over for her  was all I could do.... calling her and telling her how much I love her....
teary eyed even now thinking of her...  she looks good... what a miracle she is still alive and doing so well... spending these days in the ICU watching her vitals 24/7... praying for that exact miracle... tends to make one a bit emotional...
thankful for my daughters and my mother on this day... deeply touched by how blessed I am to be the mother of these three...  praising God for His mercy and love for all of us... the deep emotional bond we have... a bond that can never be broken... unlike other's we believe are there forever only to find out they weren't after all....  my heart is filled with joy and gratitude.... looking forward to seeing my mother real soon, celebrating her birthday with her... I am going to make every day I have with her count... count not only for the here and now but by His grace for eternity...