... almost 2 weeks into the New Year and so far this one has had her share of weeping and despair...
weeping many days and many nights.. sorrow, welling up in places expected and in unexpected ones.. necessary processing and some at least unnecessary seeming yet allowed by and filtered through the Almighty's loving fingers..
Weeping nonetheless, sadness and, at times even hopelessness... a dark heavy covering over everything, a head bursting with a pulse that is fighting the tension, the band of iron that closes in, threatening ...
chest pain... haven't had this for some time.. but this is indeed so deep a fear it is paralyzing, new angles, new versions of consequences and difficulty... like I said.. at times, hopelessness.....
My soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.
driving and pleading with Him... Have mercy on us, have mercy on us.. I have nothing left inside anymore.. nothing available.. no more strength from me, it has to be YOU, and You all alone...
Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.
Weeping... walking through a barren and dry land... can't see the other side.. I KNOW there is a light at the end of the tunnel but I CANNOT see it....
As they pass through the Valley of Baka,
they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools.
They go from strength to strength,
till each appears before God in Zion
Hang on, keep on hanging on... He is there with you.. He will never leave you or forsake you, you are NOT alone...
Deep calls to deep
And my soul finds no resting place but Him
He is my God
The yearning of my soul His touch can still
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
And my soul finds no resting place but Him
He is my God
The yearning of my soul His touch can still
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
Deep calls to deep
For he created me to be His own
He understands
The joy and pain of life He too has known
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
For he created me to be His own
He understands
The joy and pain of life He too has known
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
Deep calls to deep
And at His feast I am a welcomed guest
He gives me food
The hunger of my soul is laid to rest
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
And at His feast I am a welcomed guest
He gives me food
The hunger of my soul is laid to rest
And each rare moment
I felt His presence
I shall remember
And forever cherish
