staying... rocking back and forth in the pain... curled up and tired.. sad, realizing more and more that this is something you CANNOT avoid... so you better face it... like going to the dentist.. escaping is only possible for a time, but will only lead to more complications.. this world is a world full of troubles, heartache and injustices... man in his fallen and broken form only cares about himself and is prone to continually make the wrong choices that will lead to painful consequences, not only for himself but many around him... lost in a lost world... until the LIGHT penetrates the darkness and the God of the Universe finds us. we are not even necessarily looking for Him, but He comes anyways, He actually has had us in His mind from before the beginning of the world and His heart has been breaking watching us stumble around in the darkness until the fullness of time finally was here...full of love, compassion and joy does He then follow us right into the middle of the turmoil, holding us as we live through the emotions that assault us and then gently leading us out of the darkness into His marvelous light..
laying down His life, His rights, His comforts, His closeness with the Father... to bring us back to him... enduring His own heartache and wounds.. so that we could be healed.. is there anything greater than this? once He opens our eyes and takes the blinders off we are overwhelmed with who we are, how depraved and broken we really are and our heart and soul instantly fills with thankfulness and awe... with a love that leaves our hearts welling up with tears every time we draw closer into His presence... He is there, He can be found, He is LOVE, He is CARE, He is LIGHT, He is my All in All...
tired, bruised and sad.. I curl up, rocking back and forth and let Him tend to the deepest little niches hidden away in my heart.. any place that since my "prenatal state" has been hurt and damaged... and with His loving touch the old wounds get cleaned, dealt with... finally healing, slowly.... from here onwards it is all about believing that He did just this... staying close to Him and abiding in Him...
Because I know this to be true...
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?
As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
He claimed us as His own and that's what we will be... it is safe in the arms of our Shepherd, our Saviour!!! Never alone ever again!
