worshipping with my church family.. even though I was quite sick and still weak from the stomach issues the day before... even though I couldn't stand up for some of the worship time, it was the best place for me to be...
the love that has been carrying me through my life for the last 17 years will never fail... I know that for a fact.
I didn't think I would arrive at this point in my life and be able to already look back and realize that what I always believed to be true was true indeed...
this was my first favorite verse , I discovered it early on ...
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
over the years I have clung to this promise as He gave me more and more verses along the way to go with it....
tanning on my cute little patio with my little flower pots of herbs and my fluffy little puppies all cuddled up underneath my lounge chair I was reflecting on how I was feeling this Father's Day compared to the one last year.....
just over the last little while I have been realizing just how much I have relaxed and how what I chose to do and actually continually decide to do out of obedience to God, forgiving those that sin against me, has allowed His healing to take place in the torn-up places of my heart...
so used to the pain, it took a while to register that it actually is not really that bad anymore... a feeling of relief and freedom is replacing the feeling of abandonment and unbelievable betrayal....
moving passed the hurt as layers of healthy skin are covering the wounds... oh how magnificent a healer my Saviour is... how wonderful His prescription... no pain killers masking the symptoms but rather deep surgery cleaning out the wound, letting go and forgiving, allowing real healing to take place...
humbled by Him, I am able to see that only by His grace have I not committed these kind of sins... followed by acceptance and a release of the one who just didn't know any better....
meeting with his future wife, I think we were enjoying each other's company, I was able to honestly wish them the best, my blessing and my prayers... praying that they will find happiness and most of all, will find Him.... this encounter was such a step towards healing for me and I believe my kids as well....
so this Father's Day was a good day... for the father, the children and me... no more bad feelings for being on my own but rather a joy for the time they had together and prayers for a peaceful time for them...
bar-b-queing once again for us at night, the relaxed atmosphere on my little patio was another moment of marvelling at just how faithful He is.... He has turned into something good what was very hard.... and not supposed to be... bad choices transformed into a heart more full of love than ever before......
