Lord... tonite, I laid my future down....
I laid my dreams down....
I laid my wishes down....
my plans, I laid them down at your feet...
because you are all I need.
I laid my mistakes down....
my own ideas...
I was running again, running ahead of you...
I laid my foolish heart down...
I want to dwell at your feet and never leave....
WHY do I always make the same mistakes...
follow my foolish heart...
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it.
How come I fall for it ...
Hold me tight... Hold me and never let me go..
You are all I need... YOU ARE ALL I NEED!
I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
And even if the storm will never end here... I will praise you forevermore, because I love you with all my soul, heart and mind....
... The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.".......
Whenever I have read this before or heard any sermon about it it was always in regards to what the roles in a marriage are...
I learned that well and I am blessed by the way a woman is supposed to be the helpmate for her husband and how she complements, makes whole the man in her life. Together we reflect the image of God..
Lately, being alone, this has spoken to me in a much different way...
It is not good for man to be alone... it is not good for woman to be alone... it is not good for mother to be alone to bring up her child and deal with all that can mean at different times... being alone in that way does not necessarily mean we are not in a marriage... actually being alone and left with the whole responsibility of bringing up a child while in a marriage is even more sad......
It is not good to be alone.... we never are, even if there is no spouse or companion, we know that Jesus always is right there with us...
So "alone" as I am, I prayed, and I found the support I needed, the sounding board I needed, the strength I needed and for sure the wisdom I needed.. to meet the needs my little one had today.
I still would rather not be alone, because if God said it and He did something about it right away, there has to be a reason for that... it is not good for man to be alone... I will make a helper suitable for him...
To go to the Lord together and find the strength, wisdom and support, now that would be heaven on earth, don't you think....
But I am going to wait on Him, because He alone knows when the fullness of time will come...when it will be time for me to not be alone anymore and who I am going to be "not alone anymore" with.... Hallelujah...praise the Lord, oh my soul...who loves me with an unfailing love that is new every morning...
I laid my mistakes down.... 
