... this morning I have been listening to a song I used to listen to all the time in my car and cry and cry... and wouldn't you know it... cried again... I guess I am predictable this way...... the truth is, this song speaks about what my Saviour went through when dying on the cross.... causing Him pain like this, continues to break my heart... don't get me wrong, this isn't about me having to feel guilty... this is not why I am crying.. He chose because of His great love for me and you to go through this suffering... that's what makes me cry....because this kind of love is too much to handle.
the song challenges us to wonder if we continue to hurt Him, is He still feeling the nails every time we fail , sin....
now theologically speaking I am not even sure we should look at it this way... He paid for our sins once and for all... then, when he went through this agony...
what it does for me is it breaks my heart that my wrong choices would hurt Him, and that the wrong choices I might be making today were the reason He even had to go through the pain... my love for Him makes me sad beyond anything I could ever imagine that He might be hurt because of me... that He was hurt because of me... because of my stubbornness, my rebellion, my impatience, my desires...and, that even though I have met Him personally that first Sunday in June 1996, understood what He did for me in my heart for the first time then... that I could still stumble and continue to hurt Him.. my most precious Saviour... who is there for me ALWAYS.. who walks with me when no one else will, who catches me when I fall, who tenderly holds me in His embrace, His eyes communicating love on a level I cannot even comprehend.... what could ever be worth it.... the answer is NOTHING... oh to live with Him, to walk with Him to consider Him more worthy then anything else in this world... constantly... without being distracted and led astray... He deserves my allegiance, love and devotion... He, who I love and adore, who I worship and praise... May my life on this earth bring Him glory, honor and praise both now and forever more...
I love you Lord...
