... 9 months after moving into our new little house, I am proud to announce that I have put up my stencil scriptures today.....this is an occurrence that gives you a clear picture of who I am in many ways....
when I moved in I had my house decorated and everything packed away in about 3 days... I never stop until I am done... so... after all that was done I did try to put the stencil stuff on the walls as well.... my first try was a disaster and now I got really scared I was going to rip it apart and destroy it all ( fear of failure).... so, I asked some people for advice / help.... and then when no one really came through I just forgot about it ( having a hard time to ask for help and make it happen).... in the meantime I had thought about it many times but rather than asking someone again and maybe really get someone to help me I had been contemplating if I really wanted to put them all up, since I wasn't going to stay here forever and they were expensive (finding excuses for not having to ask for help :S )....
anyways, motivated by my daughter's enthusiasm about decorating and making her new apartment her own I got all my courage up today and..... all my stencils are finally on the wall....
but the story goes on..... for my bedroom I had gotten the 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7 passage... since this is how, if there is another love in my life I am committed to love... I was, by God's grace able to love my husband like this even after I had found out that he had betrayed me and lied to me for years....
so...... I started putting it up and.... got all caught up in the scripture that I love so much, talking to my best friend, Jesus, while doing it and singing the little song my kids learned about 12 years ago at VBS... Love is patient, Love is kind... it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, keeps no record of wrongs, love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.... it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres...
I was so in my own zone that.... stepping away from it I realized how crooked it looked...... oh my... no way to get it off the wall again, so now.... another tid bit about me, I like things just perfect... ha, who wouldn't.... but from now on I will just have to look at this every day many times and will be reminded, first of all that I did not do a perfect job....( and that is just not acceptable, or at least that's what I was taught when growing up ).... secondly though I will be reminded of this love, to love everyone this way.... and the loving kindness of my Father, who so gently convicted me 2 years ago of how I had not loved my husband this way.... His forgiveness and Him answering my prayers to change my heart... so.... I just love this passage.... I love that, even though very crooked, it's finally on my wall.... I love that for Him I do not have to be perfect.... so thankful!!!!!
