have been inspired by this whole "let's branch out and try new things" spirit I have adapted 2 years ago...
this morning in church I was hit by a wave of sadness, I guess it happens to all of us...
an announcement of the upcoming marriage seminar made me think of the last one that was run in my church... went there with my then "still husband" and it was a nightmare.. a nightmare because it was like an X-ray showing me just how hopeless and bad my marriage was... no help for us.. funny that it turned out to be that way very soon afterwards... what I didn't know then was that my husband had given his heart to someone else already... no wonder there was no hope.. duh...
during worship time a beautiful song was sung.. a song that was on the Lullaby CD I had been given for my youngest, now 15 year old daughter.. remember playing that for her and the hopes I had then... hopes for that child to grow up in a solid Christian home, in a family that would stay intact no matter the conflicts..
so I guess no wonder I was a little subdued and with other stuff distracting me I had some difficulty entering into Worship the way I would usually do... the sermon was great as always.. good thing we are paying our pastor "the big bucks" like he calls it, so that he can make the connection between the food offered to idols then to what we are facing today.. it's what the Lord uses him for :)
hanging around and talking to some of my sisters in Christ afterwards another amazing connection for Hope for Life was brought to my attention and I am once again in awe.. no matter how grey and dull my reality sometimes can be, He is always at work, and.. no matter what others do or not do.. He is always committed to me and His provision not just for me personally but for the girls in Halton Hills is not only sufficient... it is overwhelmingly generous.. Praise be to Him..
