unfortunately in churches ( not mine , thanks be to God) these dark places often are not talked about... a mask is put on, a code of behaviour that is acceptable is established and then people hide behind it...
when we find the gospel to be true and start to attempt to walk the talk, it eventually brings us to a place where we must confront our brokenness and admit to ourselves that this is what we are : both the walking wounded and the perpetually healed.
only then the power of the Gospel will be seen:
"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
2 Corinthians 12:9
on the day of the Grand Opening and Dedication Service I will give a short testimony about my abortion, I will, for the first time in front of a huge bunch of people that know me, share this part of my life, one of my dark places... many will be shocked to hear this and some will not be able to handle it... those that are so used to hiding behind their masks will probably judge me.. now, I have decided long ago, when I started sharing this part of my journey, that it didn't matter what people thought... if the God of all Creation forgives me and remembers my sin no more, what does the opinions of people still mean to me...
On the contrary, we speak as men approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts. 1 Thessalonians 2: 4+5
In His grace He has chosen me to be entrusted with the gospel, to share my testimony is allowing others to be vulnerable, come out from behind their masks and allow the healing to take place... I am not trying to please men or women for that matter, I am not trying to become more liked or admired... just to be used by my Saviour who loves me enough to give me a purpose... #SoliDeoGloria
