today, even though it was not necessarily a very nice day, it didn't have much to do with the choices that were communicated on this day, 2 years ago. for that, I am thankful.
today, feeling rather alienated by everyone around me, once again I realized that living in a society that has chosen to walk away from God just feels like that...
watching one of my mother's favourite tv shows this evening, and after spending only a few days with my parents, the reality of how a life lived in rebellion against God feels, is more than obvious... it freaks me out.
in this case I wish the scriptures weren't as true as they always are... this is what it says:
Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done. They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; they have no understanding, no fidelity, no love, no mercy. Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them. ( Romans 1:28-32 )
the beloved tv show was about an Anglican Reverend, who ended up in bed with a woman he had just met a week ago, the woman herself had just broken up with her fiancé a day before....
talking about if living together would be okay with the "man upstairs" the Pastor answered: God is happy whenever there is love...... seriously?????
on my walk this afternoon I prayed and asked for strength and grace, for patience and for mercy and understanding for those that do not know what they are doing... they get to me, after all, I really would want them to know .... I asked the Lord to change me because I do not want to be standing in the way of what He might be doing in their lives... this is the place where I get more easily angered than anywhere else... and that's just not okay...
because: Love is patient, Love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud it is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, keeps no record of wrongs, love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth, it always protects always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres...
so there... again, a time of testing.. no surprises here.. do I walk the talk... even here??? with His help...
