Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
got some not so good news today... the tumor is cancer... I had chosen not to worry about it and God had given me real peace ... I am still at peace, but this has kind of put a damper on our excitement and relief... a whole new set of issues to deal with, but... like the Psalmist said... putting my hope in Him, I can still praise Him... no matter our circumstances, He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow....His lovingkindness never fails, He is faithful and full of love and mercy... when asked to come to the surgeons office this morning, fear wanted to grip my heart and all I could pray was "have mercy Lord, have mercy on us." I admit that I would really want to just hide, wish I had someone to make it all better, somehow like my Mama was doing it for me when I was a child... want to make it all better for her... and then I realize, I do not have to hide... I have to put my hope in Him....
Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
Remember, O LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
He remembers, He is Mercy, He is Love, He is Care... and once again, as much as I am asking Him to save my mother's life and let us have her with us for many, many years yet, my desperate prayer is for her, my father and my mother's soul to be saved... for eternity.....
in our weakness He is strong... and I have no problem admitting just how weak I am... my body is showing me "literally" so to speak, that I cannot digest any more.... I am tired and I am worn out... I would like to stay here until she is better but I won't be able to... I am torn..... but He is GREATER than anything that I am not able to deal with on my own... eternally thankful to Him..
