... sometimes I wish I lived when Jesus was walking this earth, I would have wanted to be Mary, sitting by His feet and listening to what He had to say, soaking in His presence, basking in His gentleness and love.... hearing truth , spoken by the "Way the Truth and the Life"..... but then I would have had to go through the heartache of losing Him, seeing Him again, just for Him to leave for good... to have known Him "personally" though would have been so amazing... wondering if I would have loved Him more than I do now... or believe in Him more...
Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him (1 Peter 1:8 )
Loving Him, enjoying His presence.. staying at His feet, pouring out my love, my heartache and my sadness... my joy and my excitement... my worries and my brokenness...letting go of any selfish notion.. makes me think of a new favorite song...
Here before Your altar
I am letting go of all I've held
Of every motive, every burden
Everything that's of myself
And I just wanna wait on You, my God
I just wanna dwell on who You are
Beautiful, beautiful
Oh, I am lost for more to say
Beautiful, beautiful
Oh Lord You're beautiful to me
Here in Your presence
I am not afraid of brokenness
To wash Your feet with humble tears
I would be poured out till nothing's left
And I just wanna wait on You, my God
I just wanna dwell on who You are
I just want to dwell on who He is, how much He loves me, how much I love Him, and how I can serve Him and follow Him...
I am still wishing though I was there when He was... because sometimes I feel He isn't there. sometimes I am feeling alone, I know that He is always there, but sometimes His presence escapes me.. I am a touchy, feely kind of person and to be able to really see Him will one day be just amazing...
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." ( Hebrews 11:1 )
considering that faith is a gift from Him... I am going to hold on to what I know to be true... that His presence is always there, that He walks with me wherever I go...
because that is what His Word, the truth, says: "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.” ( Matthew 28: 20 )
..I am looking forward to seeing Him in all His glory when He takes me home one day... and I am sure that He will...
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