..I am waiting...

sick as a dog.. I hate being sick.. coughing and sneezing like there is no tomorrow..
great..
fallen from the perceived "High", down, flat on my face.. so I am calling out to the friend of the poor, once again...
"help me through the night, help me in the fight, come to my rescue..."

if it was about having "someone" in my life I could have had that a long time ago.. I was told I am too picky many times.. :S

I am looking for the one that my Jesus hand picked and groomed for me, the one He made me for.. is changing and transforming me for.. I won't give in to the need for companionship but rather seek Him out when I feel lonely..
He is my bestest friend, the lover of my soul.. His tenderness soothes my soul..always..

have read a few sayings lately that resonate with my soul:

"I love how God hides you from all the wrong ones. Saves u a lot of heartache. The right one will SEE you..and melt.... " now that's what I want..

"a woman's heart needs to be so hidden in the heart of God that the man has to seek Him to find her..."
hiding in the shelter of His wings... someone has to love Him as much as I do to find me... cool.....

what is needed is trust and patience.. total surrender... again and again.. so today, after another disappointment.. I am choosing to surrender and move closer to the One who protects my heart.. who knows best and who comes to my rescue in my loneliness.. I wasn't even that lonely when that someone had come calling.. was not seeking.. so back to my favourite place I go...
serving Him while I am waiting.. actually, just getting better for now is all I am doing... sucks to be sick...