the pain feels like a hollow in my chest
and I struggle just to take another step
it really is more like a stone in my stomach
like a weight on my heart,
like a huge rock that will smash it into pieces.
maybe it already did
when it feels like an ocean of sorrow right under my skin
and tears fill my eyes every second I am alone
a wave that swells and threatens to drown every little bit of joy
when it feels like no one understands
when there is guilt,
because, come on, there is so much to be thankful for
yet
so many layers,
too many it seems
but.
this lonely heart will sing again
these barren lungs will breathe again...
in the palm of His hand
because
there is compassion
HOPE
a place to just hide
no guilt or shame for not being able to move beyond the sadness
a place to just be
and cry
and let it all out
no need to be strong for anyone anymore
not now anyways
not here anyways
in the embrace of Him
shoulders can come down,
tensions can leave
and there is
PEACE
all I know is that He loves me
and I love Him
nothing else matters
HOPE
His name is
JESUS
my lonely heart can sing again
my barren lungs can breathe again
He carries my sadness
He lovingly wipes away my tears
He is the breath in my lungs
He alone
just Him
He is
LIGHT
He illuminates the night
there is warmth,
love,
belonging,
comfort,
joy,
sorrow and suffering
cannot drown it out
Praise be to HIM
ALONE
