a question from yesterday's Bible study:
when facing trials and tribulations.... do you trust God.. do you believe He is trustworthy, do you believe that He is good??????????
looking back on the 23 years of being a Christ follower I have indeed come to know Him as trustworthy, have come to know Him as loving, gracious, full of mercy and GOOD... all the time..
I have come to know Him in the midst of my trials, when my husband cheated and walked away, when my mother got so very sick, when a lawsuit was filed against me that would have destroyed and taken away all my worldly goods, when the dysfunction and sorrow caused by my extended family reached new heights...
I met Him when what I was hoping for did not come true. when frantic prayers were not answered the way I wanted them to be...
when the marriage did come to an end, when my mother succumbed to the cancer that could not be stopped, when more and more abuse was heaped on top of what was already there...
when I found out that my hope is not in changing circumstances but in Him, and that He, and that is the most wonderful thing, will never change...
I now know Him to be worthy of my trust. I know that all He ever orchestrates or allows is the very best for me...
facing new and troubling scenarios I ( after first still getting frazzled and afraid ) I choose to think about that which is true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, commendable, anything that is excellent and praiseworthy... knowing that the Lord is near, I choose to rejoice and give Him all my requests by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving and His peace floods my heart and my mind.... and it is all because of Him....
I have come to know that I am in the best place when I am weak, when I know that I cannot control anything and surrender it all to Him, because in my weakness He is strong, He is glorified the most...
I have no good thing apart from my Lord, and only because of Him do I have fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore.
remembered this song from 7 years ago.... and it is still so very true:
Here I am a sinner
Broken and in need of You
Take my life and wash my fears away
For You are the Great I AM
Rest assured, I feel Your hand
Holding me until the darkness clears
A Father to the fatherless
Redeemer of my soul
My Life is Yours forever
I want the world to know
Your mercy saved me
Mercy made me whole
Your mercy found me
Called me as Your own
Here I stand a child of Yours
Broken and in need of You
Break these chains and wash my guilt away
Healer of my brokenness
My weary soul will find its rest
You are my strength, the lifter of my head
You're greater than my yesterdays
You hold me close today
You're the Lord of my tomorrows
My heart will always say
You're greater than my yesterdays
You hold me close today
You're the Lord of my tomorrows
My heart will always say
You called me as Your own
Thank You for Your mercy
The Lord is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
Lamentations: 3:25
The Lord is good to all,
and his mercy is over all that he has made.
Psalm 145:9
